Like running from your shadow.

5 Jul
The memories begin to bleed
Into this new city/life
The feeling of déjà vu
So strong
I catch glimpses of past countries
Outside the city bus window
A red bridge and a great river




That panic

That overwhelming feeling

That I should have accomplished more by now

That I should at least better understand what it is that I even want

I am familiar with this particular feeling


It is what keeps me visiting my past




Why do I cling so tightly to this phantom girl

How do I let her/me go

My inner strength tells me keep still


Every time you run, you only have to start all over again.


No wonder it feels like I keep haunting this place

I begin to make progress

I get scared and sabotage it

Taking me right back to the beginning



“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”


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